~ Mai Story Chamber ~

Mai birthday 2012

2012-01-24T16:25:00.000+09:00

i had a blast on my birthday this year! thank you to all my friends from 33countries who shares the joy and celebrated with the surprises i didn't see coming...

with ekatrina from russia

the cute cake, birthday card & more presents

with my fav girl, Joycee

arigatou!! i'm touched!

didn't see this coming too.. what a lovely flowers.love the colour combination..n on top of all, they are my fav flowers

thank you sayang!!

precious gifts from;

ksenia(rusia), zhadra(kazafstan),dhil(sri lanka), ayu(indonesia),koshim(tajikistan), chandara(cambodia),woan yin(malaysia..ehhe)

brooch from judith(hungary),perfume from joyce(philipine) & woan yin, letter pad from ekatrina(rusia)

home socks from shini(korea)

from minerva(samoa) & swe swe(myanmar)

from cholpon(kazafstan) & madhura(india)

someone told me

if the snow fall on the night of your birthday... you're about to have a year full of success!

i love that!

furthermore, i wish for snow last night before i go to sleep

and one of my wish came true

can't wait for the other wishes to be granted!

Wishes, Hopes & Dreams

2012-01-20T00:40:00.001+09:00

15.01.2012

as for today,

after a whole week full of struggling with presentation & study,

i can finally have my rest...which is lying around doing nothing

and, not long after that

i received the news i've been waiting for

alhamdulillah...

thank you for the great news mai friend! i'm so happy for you beyond words. you're gonna be great ..greater,better than i can ever be because you've always been a good friend through thick & thin.

i'm so happy that all my dearest friends wishes, hopes & dreams are being fullfil... like it's telling you, it's ok to have those wishes, hopes & dreams..better than not to have it at all..and that it's worth it despite the time, distance & hurdles.

i'm grateful for the great people around me, the love surrounding me, the happiness inside me and the fact that i'm alive to have the ability to give back.

THANK YOU,

YOU!!

( ^ ^ ) v

Unexpected complicated news

2012-01-10T02:18:00.001+09:00

sometimes in this life

we have to deal with people we dislikes

deal with their personalities that we wish we didn't have to

deal with the fact that we can't run away from them

but i think people come to us with reasons

it's like they're being sent to us

and i bet even if the reasons didn't make sense

or even if we didn't see it coming our way

there are reasons why we are that person they chose

as someone told me

see always the good quality in every person

maybe they didn't want to be annoying as they may seems

they just need someone to talk to

for us to just sit there and listen

might do a big relief for them

they might not show us they really need our help

coming to us at the first place is a big step for them too

so, why don't we just lend them our humble ears and listen

we should be glad that we can do something for someone

even if it means a small deeds

small decent deeds could make a big difference in someone

and we might not even know it

ok,
forget the above part
what i'm gonna say onwards has nothing to do with the above melancholy self-talking

i'm startled plus happy when i heard that one of my friend gave birth to a baby boy yesterday(09.01.12).. i just got back from shinjuku with ksenia when i heard the news.it was kind of unexpected news for us but we're glad she's fine. we wish her baby will be fine too. i visited her and i kept all the tears n fears to myself... couldn't tell her how much i want her to be back here with her baby... i pray for her and her baby boy!

all aunties n uncles are waiting for you to come back here dear!

get well soon!

Rayyan, Mai angel

2012-01-05T00:07:00.003+09:00

seriously... everything was moving so fast. i can't really believe that i have a son to who's gonna check in into a kindergarden.rayyan is 5 this year.i couldn't believe it myself as i keep saying that he's 4 during my conversation with the teachers.5years old?? really?? i think i have missed much of him and frankly, it really hurts... i keep on crying everytime i think of my conversation with him one time after my solat last holiday... i told him i'm sorry that i'm not around to be with him and that sometimes i scream at him.the moment i said it, he looked down and covered his face in my telekung...the next thing i knew was that he's crying...he's 5 and he's crying when i said i'm sorry...Ya Allah, that really touched my heart and i can't stop crying myself..i told him to look after his brother rifqi and be good to each other while i'm away..he nodded.. i cried everytime i think about that moment... i felt like i always blame him for making rifqi cried sometimes..maybe i didn't know how to handle when they started fighting over small things..but rayyan always have to gave in..i'm proud of him.it's kinda hit me how much he has grown to be... that was a conversation that i'll never forget my entire life...we both ended up crying together..just me and rayyan!

for the first time since i arrived here, i'm crying because i miss my kids.i've been putting walls around me, locking them in a memory room that i don't dare to open because i'm vulnerable each day here. right now, i'm taking down those walls and realize that i too, need to grow up! my kids taught me something i didn't see before..how strong they were when i'm not around...how much they miss me. i can't describe the face of joy they show when i show in front of them unexpectedly.i didn't tell them i was coming home..not even my parents..my friends, my collegues.. and those faces of them were priceless...and they still recognize me, love me the same as before and nothing has changed eventho i'm a thousands miles away from them and i don't call them that often... they show me the strength, the courage.. the love i need!

tomorrow is Rayyan's 1st day in school..he has never been to any classes before but i know that he's gonna be alright. like he always do.. maybe he's gonna feel afraid at first but he's gonna like his new friends and school... he's the kinda of boy who don't shows his feelings...he always act he's ok... he's strong! mama pray for you dear...i always do!

latest picture..taken on 30.12.11 morning
4years 5months old

and for that, i have to be strong for them too. i have to change and be better and face my days

honestly, i'm still searching for the spirit to start my class back tomorrow. i've tons of things to do and don't feel like doing it.

i just hope that tomorrow just gonna work fine for me too...

2012

2012-01-03T12:50:00.001+09:00

it's 3days past 2012 and i find it hard to start again... another 66days before i leave this place and that time it is not gonna be easy...

in 2011, i have to leave the kids and get to be with my husband eventhough we're 300++km apart from each other...

and in 2012, i'll be leaving my husband and get to be with the kids...

both years is a struggle...each time i'm giving up something to get something.

i have no 2012 new year's resolution... but i'm glad, my 2011 was a bless. this year, i'm planning to stick with 'mai pace' and hope that everything turns out just fine... pray for me!

maybe my little wish would be wanting to spend mai days in 2012 in better ways...

how are you starting your 2012?

a ferris wheel in Osaka Rinku Town captured on 01.01.12 with my beloved half by my side

and for the record dear izmir iswandi arifin, I LOVE YOU!! i don't think i can ever say this enough to show how much i need you in my life..

and i wish 2012 will be another great year for the 4 of us!

Life

2011-12-30T01:10:00.001+09:00

Life is too short to spend on worrying things or so they said...

I wish it is easy

Final exam sem 1

2011-11-28T03:16:00.001+09:00

lama dah tak buat nota comel2...igtkan dah jadi cikgu nih,xde dah nk buat nota camni...heheh..kalau byk masa,buat slow2 best kot..ini, dah last minute..esok exam,mlm nih baru terkedek2 nk buat...tapi mmg hebat laa,kalau dulu buat nota pasal perintang, arus letrik, magnetic field ect..skg ni buat nota pasal grammar...huhuhu... salute kat sensei yg berjaya menakut2kan kami dgn soalan exam yg mencabar...

ini dia nota kaler2 saya..2pages ni je gigih berwarna-warni, yg lain ala kadar jer..

esok exam grammar.. boleh bawa masuk nota,sbb tu beriya buat...salin la mana yg berkenan dr dlm kertas latihan...dengan harapan esok kuar soalan yg sama..biasanya, kalau kat univ fukui dulu..kalau bole bawa masuk buku teks,nota bagai..itu petanda soalan susah gila...bakal xdpt jawab...yg kedengaran waktu exam ialah bunyi org selak2 muka surat buku..hahaha...

jumaat lps exam kefahaman...best sbb 90% soalan dpd latihan dlm kelas...sayyang Hamakawa sensei..mmg understanding... sensei sy nih umur 36thn..lebih kurang student je umur dia..sgt cool!! sy belajar pedagogy(教授法）,kefahaman(読解) & tulisan kanji dgn hamakawa sensei... kebetulan byk masuk kelas dia... n dia adalah guru homeroom saya...hehehe..sudah jodoh!

selain kefahaman n grammar, subjek lain xde exam.. markah dpd latihan, kehadiran n ke'aktif'an dalam kelas..hahaha..sape byk ckp kira aktif la kot eh? tp best gak yg lain xde exam..xleh imagine exam karangan...huhuhu...cikgu karangan pon bestt!! kimu sensei,org korea tp dah mcm org jepun..duk jepun dah 16thn..selalu tersenyum dan ceria...xpernah marah...tp pernah nmpk dia marah org jepun...sangat respect kat dia..pangkat dia agak tinggi kat sini..hebat!

lps esok, lusa dah xde exam..cuma kena siapkan segala portfolio n kertas kerja...lps tu kena study utk proficiency test...tp mcm malas nk belajar..hehehe..maklumlah, exam fee free... hopefully,sempat la study mana yg patut...ni kali ke-3 amek level 1.. 2thn lps lepas sudah..tp format lama..nih nk try format baru...doakan ye!

sangat la gaya tulis diari! apa dah jadi pagi2 buta ni?? mood mereng~

ok laa..dah jam 3:12am..

selamat malam

oyasumi~

assalamualaikum

浴衣(Yukata)

2011-11-25T17:47:00.000+09:00

lama giller tak menulis...

kat tv tgh tayang cerita pasal 塩麹（しおこうじ）.one day nk masak try ni laa..nmpk mcm menarik..masuk dgn apa2 masakan pon katanya... kat msia ada ke? kalau tgk translation english, malted rice.. hmm.. tetiba cerita pasal masakan pulak..

so,arinih nk letak gmbr arini dulu..

gambar sembunyi belakang batu ni...cover badan..hehehe..xde mananya nk cover..tp ada org kata saya nmpk berisi..rasa cam ye je..yeke? kalau timbang berat sama jer..dtg sini berat 46kg..alhamdulillah, kat sini makan cukup 3kali sehari..sejuk2 ni lagi la banyak nk makan..hehehe

Erina from brazil.. nendanya org jepun ;)

with erina & azza(egypt)

yukata sendiri dah byk kali pakai..bg org lain pakai...sekali sekala pakai yukata warna lain..

btw, pagi dah mula final exam utk 1st semester.. next week ada lagi beberapa subjek..lps tu xsabar nk jalan2 gi Nikko. lps tu xsabar nk winter holiday!!

Kasih tak lemau dimakan usia

2011-11-01T20:06:00.001+09:00

Kita biasanya balik ke rumah selepas kesibukan kerja di pejabat dengan niat untuk berehat melepaskan penat jerih.Ada juga dikalangan kita yang berniat balik ke rumah sekejap untuk mengambil pakaian sukan dan kemudian terus ke gelanggang permainan bersama-sama dengan rakan-rakan sepejabat atau sepersatuan.Tidak kurang pula yang sampai di rumah terus mengerjakan solat 'Asar dan kemudian ke halaman rumah meneruskan kerja-kerja menanam pokok bunga kesayangan kita itu.

Apabila sampai ke rumah, hanya anak-anak kita sahaja yang menyambut di pintu. Isteri kita yang "full-time-house-wife" tu, meneruskan pekerjaan biasanya seperti melipat kain, gosok baju atau menyapu halaman rumah petang-petang.Kita pun mencium anak-anak dan terus ke bilik tidur dan membuat kerja-kerja seperti di atas tadi. Tidak ada senerio drama tv seperti isteri menyambut dan menyediakan minuman untuk suaminya, sambil suaminya pula merebahkan badannya di sofa empuk "italian set" nya itu.

Bagi isteri yang balik bersama-sama kita satu kereta pula, sepanjang perjalanan dia lelapkan matanya menghala keluar hinggalah sampai ke rumah. Tiba di rumah, masing-masing dengan urusan sendirian, sibuk macam di pejabat tadi.

Alangkah ruginya kita menpunyai pasangan yang halal tetapi hubungan kita seperti "bukan muhrim". Sudahlah kita berpisah lebih lapan jam sehari dengannya kerana bertugas di pejabat, ditambah pula dengan hubungan yang hambar apabila bersama di rumah. Dengan ini, ramailah dikalangan kita yang tidak dapat menikmati cogan kata yang popular masa kini, "Rumahku Syurgaku".

Mengapa boleh terjadi demikian? Mari kita analisis sketsa di atas. Semasa baru-baru kahwin, biasanya isteri kita tu lah yang menyambut kita di pintu dengan senyum manisnya dan memimpin kita ke kerusi atau ke dalam bilik tidur. Dan di situ jugalah dia akan bercerita mengadu hal peristiwa-peristiwa yang berlaku sepanjang ketiadaan kita di rumah.

Macam-macamlah tajuknya hingga kadang-kadang naik meluat mendengarnya. Tetapi, kita pada masa itu memang pendengar yang amat baik sekali dan bersungguh-sungguh melayan cerita dan emosinya. Baru kahwinlah katakan. Tetapi sekarang semuanya itu hanya tinggal kenangan.

Wahai suami-suami yang dimuliakan,

Memang kita lebih sibuk dari dia. Memang kita lebih banyak memikirkan masalah masyarakat dan negara. Memang minat kita berbeza. Memang kita malas mendengar cakap dia. Tetapi, pernah tak kita fikirkan hasilnya jika kita mendengar sekejap ceritanya bila sampai di rumah setiap petang?

Jika kita boleh meneruskan tabiat seperti baru-baru kahwin dulu tu; menjadi pendengar yang baik, meluangkan masa dalam lima minit mendengar ceritanya sebaik sahaja kita tiba di rumah, mengangguk-anggukkan kepala dan bersetuju dengan pandangan-pandangannya, menegur ceritanya apabila dia mula nak mengumpat dengan cara yang baik - yakinlah, hasilnya nanti, dia akan rasa terhibur dan merasakan dialah orang yang paling gembira sekali pada hari itu.

Cintanya rasa berbalas apabila aduannya itu dilayan dengan belaian kasih mesra. Kusut masai semasa dia memerahkan otaknya membersih, mengindahkan rumah kita dan memasak masakan kegemaran kita, akan terurai kerana kesanggupan kita mendengarnya sembangnya itu. Tak lama wahai suami-suami, hanya lima minit sahaja yang perlu kita luangkan untuknya. Tetapi kesan boleh menceriakannya selama 24 jam untuk hari yang berikutnya.

Niatkan di hati kita untuk mendengar ceritanya sama ada dirumah atau di dalam kereta sebaik sahaja kita melangkah keluar dari pejabat. Jangan amalkan singgah dulu di kafetaria untuk minum petang dengan rakan-rakan sepejabat, ini akan menyebabkan kita merasakan isteri tidak perlu lagi melayan kita di rumah nanti. Sebab kita sudah kenyang.

Sampai di rumah mulakan dengan soalan, "Ada berita baik hari ini ke?" atau yang serupa dengannya. Yakinlah, sebulan kita amalkan, pasti isteri kita akan bersama-sama dengan anak-anak kita menyambut di muka pintu dengan senyuman meleret hingga ke telinganya. Kita juga yang akan terhibur.

Amalkanlah wahai suami!

- Artikel iluvislam.com

love this article.it reminds me of mai words to him before we got married. i wish..hope that our relationship will stay like org yg baru bercinta forever... jalan berpegangan tangan ke mana2, sentiasa usik-mengusik antara satu sama lain, penuh dgn ketawa dan senyuman..of course menangis bersama..berkongsi masalah bersama...let we both know that we have each other to say just about anything..there's no other perfect person to be a listener... just imagine if you have sooooo much in mind, soo many things that happens to you that you want to share, to brag about but you have no one to say those things to... terutamanya org perempuan, mmg byk perkara yg bermain dlm mindanya, byk yg difikirkannya..kata2 suami se'simple', "how's your day today?" meant soooo much... it's a key telling her that she can tell him everything... but be sure not to judge her.. advices are welcome... talk with smile on your face.. smile even if you're talking on the phone...do you know that a smile you make on the phone make a difference in your voice tone? it does says you're smiling from the end of the line... it meant that she can go on and say it... guys sometimes forget to smile... they forget to make women smile... they forget to make us laugh..because they have some other important job to be done.. or maybe he's just tired from work...

but, have you ever stop and think?

that women have just about the same workload?

be it a housewife or a working mom... they are doing things that involves man..

... attention to wife is just as important as attention to kids ...

daripada pengamatan peribadi, ramai mak ayah yg begitu ambil berat ttg anak2... kalau anak2 jatuh n luka semua gabra...kalau salah seorang suami atau ister luka or sakit? adakah sama perhatiannya? kalau anak2 xmakan,risau bukan main...tp partner makan ke x mkn arini, ada tanya tak? huhuhu...

for me, anak2 sampai satu tahap..kita akan berpisah dgn mereka ..be it, mereka masuk sekolah asrama, masuk universiti or finally kahwin dan mempunyai rumahtangga sendiri...

tapi suami atau isteri,bermula dari lafaz nikah..berjanji utk menjaga antara satu sama lain, memberi nafkah dan manjaga kebajikannya... sehingga apabila anak2 sudah berumahtangga dan duduk berjauhan..si dia masih bersama kita... that's what love for eternity...till the heart stops beating...

just mai personal opinion

Searching for beauty in misery

2011-11-01T15:30:00.000+09:00

challenges comes everyday without fail... it's just the matter of how you see they greet you...

do you see it as a problem? or you see it as a friend who makes you stronger...

how you deal with it? or do you run away from them?

do you smile at them, or you questions their existence?

do you stand straight with you principle or you gave in?

challenges comes in various types...

sometimes you didn't even notice what is it for real...

you can't describe it but it exist

somewhere deep down in your heart

and you feel like nothing you can do

just hope for the best, imagine the best

see what you want!

don't linger in hatred and negativity

just see what you want!

end of october...

2011-10-28T19:55:00.000+09:00

seronoknyer hari ini jumaat... tadi ada fire drill..semua gembira menyambut fire drill, masuk kebuk wasap, tgk persembahan menyelamat wanita diatas bumbung etc.. pakcik2 bomba macho2..hahaha..mengong dah sume bila tiba hari jumaat...insyaAllah,nnti letak gambar..

lepas fire drill, jalan2 ke aeon main taiko n window shopping..

amek gmbr purikura..

semua lps tension after a very tiring week..

makan aiskrim baskin robbin... halloween choc mint ..

ada gula letup2 dlm aiskrim..sedap!!

esok sabtu & ahad pergi homestay... first time take part dlm homestay.. tanoshimi!

Toyama & Fukui

2011-10-25T15:21:00.000+09:00

hari ni sangat happy!! hisashiburi ni rasa happy camni...nikmat nyer perasaan gembira n tenang...

banyak sangat cerita nk share, tp kesibukan, kemalasan n kelembapan wifi bilik ni menyebabkan malas nk menulis... just a brief update and pictures to share...

cuti 3hari yg lalu 7~9hb october 2011, i went to toyama... the trip took 3hours by train. perjalanan pergi ok, balik kena berdiri 3jam dlm keretapi...semua org nak balik ke tokyo..shinkansen penuh..tu la,beli tiket last minute...huhuh..tp alhamdulillah,selamat sampai... anyway, from toyama kami ke fukui pulak... warga toyama ajak jalan2 ke fukui..mmg seronok laa..dapat balik semula ke kampung halaman...dpt pergi tojinbo,makan fukui soba n ketam(sedappp!!), dapat pegi masjid baru fukui..dulu zaman kami xde masjid..seronok dpt solat kat masjid.lps tu,dpt tgk university tercinta...dah semakin besar..ada bangunan baru..kalu stay lama mmg nk masuk jumpa sensei2.. huhuh... tp kami balik hari je, so xsempat nak buat apa2.. insyaAllah akan dtg lagi next time bawa anak2 pulak...

that's all..enjoy the pics :)

kani soba (soba ketam)& kani tama(telur n isi ketam) the best!!

sotong bakar :) must have!!

dating!

ini la Toujinbo..terkenal sbg tpt org jepun bunuh diri..

iku san.. huhuh...cantek kan batu2 tu

masjid fukui...thn lepas selamat didirikan.. alhamdulillah, seronok ada masjid

interior pon cantek...

jumpa kawan lama...chin san,malaysian yg buka kedai makanan malaysia di fukui

warga Toyama yang sangat mesra n friendly ;)

finally ada rezeki juga menjejakkan kaki kembali ke kampung halaman... kali terakhir pergi 3thn lps

next time nak bawa rayyan n rifqi witness the place mama n papa berkenalan..hik3

terlepas juga

2011-10-17T18:19:00.000+09:00

sedeyyyyy!!! for the first time sejak dtg sini i'm crying like a baby! and the tears are not worth the reason at all... i officially hate that woman!! aarrggghhhhh!!! gerammm!

pertama kali dalam hidup berhadapan dgn pompuan jepun xbertimbang rasa... setelah lama menahan sabar, meberanikan diri menegakkan keadilan.. dia fikir adil utk org lain je, abis tu adil utk org minoriti ni xpayah pk la??!

sudah tidak berdaya berkompromi!!

Saturday & Sunday

2011-10-15T07:37:00.000+09:00

Mai Saturday & Sunday become less fun without you n the kids...

you are mai weekends!!

Home is where you are...

2011-10-06T21:39:00.001+09:00

this coming monday is a public holiday in japan..so, we get 3 straight days off

i'm going to Toyama..our new home..going there for the 1st time

right now, i miss the kidss so bad that i don't dare to think about it too much..

.nnti emo melampau payah! last week, a friend of mine ask me about the kids... i told her that i skype with the kids 2 or 3times a week..not everyday.for me,kalau skype hari2 lagi bertambah rindu...she misses her daughter sooo much that when she told me about her daughter she cried!! i almost cried too,but we're about to enter class that time... mmg sebak bila cerita bab anak2.. i understand her feeling..anak seorang baru 2tahun pulak tu...'頑張れ’しか言えなかった。。。

and of course i miss maiLove too... he's mai 'home'

seriously, being here gives me freedom..as in no housework to do,no office work, i don't even have to clean my room because every week there'll be cleaners who'll come to clean n change everything...don't have to cook, free time spent either watching tv,karaoke-ing or just lazing around doing nothing...

but it doesn't feel satisfying when the one you love is not around...

i feel like a fool talking to pictures of the boys on my wall everytime i came from school...but it somehow put something into the hole of loneliness...their smile is the closest i get as their reply..and i guess that's enough..

kedamaian dan rindu yg ada skg ni mmg sesuai dgn kadarnya...

Allah Maha Adil. Dia tahu kemampuan hambaNya.. terharu dgn kasih Dia!

alhamdulillah, baru je lepas ber'skype' dgn anak2...semua sihat di Malaysia.anak2 lincah dan ceria seperti biasa..melihat gelagat rayyan yg masih lagi sibuk kemaruk bunga api walaupun raya dah lama berlalu...masih lagi menunjuk pada mama bunga api dalam simpanannya... atuknya pulak tukang topup stock. rifqi pulak, kalau menghadap komputer mesti nk tekan2 keyboard..xdpt,merengek..tp bila mama nyanyi lagu2 yg biasa mama nyanyikan, rifqi pon sama2 menghayun badan ke kanan kiri ikut rentak mama nyanyi...serius nk nangis on the spot, tp simpan air mata... Ya Allah, kalau la boleh masuk tangan dlm laptop n usap dahi anak2.. cium wajah2 mereka...

insyaAllah, esok ptg mama akan bertolak ke toyama menaiki shinkansen.mula2 nak naik bas,tp tiket sold out...tu la,beli lambat! tiket shinkansen pergi sahaja 10,360yen sama dgn lebih kurang rm400..balik tak tau lagi macam mana..most probably shinkansen jugak..untuk cuti 3hari ni,tiket pergi balik je dah dekat rm1k..kalah tiket air asia pergi bandung..hik3.. tp nak jumpa buah hati punya pasal, xpelaa...lps nih mungkin xdpt nk jumpa lagi sampai la cuti musim sejuk bulan 12 nnti...lama tuuu...

tiket shinkansen esok! can't wait!!

buah hati yang sedang menunggu di sana~

;)

君に会いに行くよ！

Tokyo Visit

2011-10-05T17:27:00.000+09:00

pictures taken during Tokyo Visit 23rd September 2011

浜離宮恩師庭園(Hamarikyu Onshi Teien)

after lunch with Dasya

mai 3rd time @ Tokyo Tower

must-do-pose here

view of tokyo city from tokyo tower @ 330m high

Friends from 30countries

waterbus to Asakusa

indonesia,malaysia,america & madagascar ambassadors :))

on boat with friends from egypt,brazil n sri lanka

sky tree at the back n that gold thing that i don't know what.. huhuhu

in front of asakusa

people at asakusa...

the temple

the entrance gate

saw this couple pushing the stroller.. and saw there's dogs inside it instead of baby :)

2 as 1

2011-09-25T17:32:00.000+09:00

i still remember

a dear friend of mine said that

she can't imagine me being without him...

i was touched by her words... never knew she cares that much

and i admit she's true!

she really knows me..thank you,YOU!

and now, he's here in Japan with me

being by my side chasing dreams

he arrived safely yesterday

spent the last 24hours together.. jalan2 shinjuku area..shopping! went to H&M, ZARA, Banana republic ect..every shop had sale..but we didn't shop a lot..tgk baju budak2 teringat Rayyan & Rifqi..baju sume comel2!

rindu 2RA!!

walking by the busy streets.. talked a lot about lots of things.reminiscing memories.

laughed a lot esp about 'my' mistake..so sorry dear!

next time remind me yg dah macam maknenek ni eh..heheheh

bila igt balik serius rasa nk nangisss!!

but we both agreed that we'll both laugh at the story in future..hahaha..serious lawak!!

during breakfast this morning..

he's now in shinkansen on his way to soon-to-be our new home,insyaAllah...

both of us are chasing dreams

different district

350km apart

i'll always love you with all mai heart!

Rindu itu nikmat

2011-09-21T18:00:00.000+09:00

~ Rayyan is 4years 1month 3weeks old ~

~ Rifqi is 1year 4months 2weeks 3days old ~

browsing over their pictures... i'm missing them

miss their laugh, their smile, their talk and everything

i leave them knowing that God will take a good care of them

170days to go~

Kenduri Doa Selamat & Tahlil

2011-09-18T22:06:00.000+09:00

picture taken a week before i left for japan

alhamdulillah, telah selamat berlangsung majlis tahlil n doa selamat di rumah kami.buat pertama kalinya kami buat makan2 jemput jiran2...sejak pindah xsempat2 nk buat kenduri..ini pon my MIL yg suggest..dia yg masak n uruskan bab makan..kami yg lain2 tolong2 jer.. thanx Ma!

Rayyan & Qayra

sayang betul dgn adek rifqi..bawa jalan2 naik motor..

tp skg adek rifqi dah pandai skit2 bawa motor sendiri

antara yg datang

ilyana & family

haris

Uncle Danial & Rifqi

Atsumi sensei,danial san and their baby joshua shouma kun & Hoshino sensei

kak haiza & famili, naz & ida

yati n her baby danial mirza(cik kak naik motor tu qaseh sofea,my sis daughter)

alhamdulillah majlis berjalan lancar.ramai sungguh yg datang.jiran2 yg sgt friendly n supportive..i love my neighbourhood.kankei kuat...baru je nk mesra2 dah kena pergi kan?

terima kasih kepada yg sudi menghadirkan diri..alhamdulillah, berkat doa semua sudah selamat sampai di sini dan masih bertahan :)

insyaAllah, ada rezeki kita jumpa lagi

1st week

2011-09-17T09:23:00.002+09:00

on our way to our centre from haneda airport

Sky Tree @ Asakusa... scheduled to open in 2012

634m currently the tallest tower in the world

ternampak 'rumah kotak' near the river...

musim panas ni ok lagi,kalau tiba musim sejuk nnti mcm mana la depa

a very nice pastry shop.. ichido itte mitai

orientation week

me & swe swe san from myanmar

wan in(malaysian) & ran san from vietnam

kalau kat aaj ada AAJ番号(nombor aaj) kat sini ada 研修番号(nombor kursus pelajar)

i'm no 21!

favourite choc yg ada dijual di shokudou

利用証- multipurpose card..heheh

a very important card.this card is use to buy food at the canteen n borrow book from the library.

dalam kad ni ada info berapa byk duit kita yg ada utk makan for the week..seminggu(5hari) dapat duit makan dalam 12,500yen(rm500)..duit nih kena habiskan by the week.hanya 3,500yen je boleh carry forward..duit dalam kad nih xboleh tukar dgn cash,so rugi kalau tak abiskan..so, mmg makan sakan la(for the time being sbb baru sampai kan?)heheh..xpon,beli la choc ke,air mineral ke,fruits ke utk habiskan duit tu..

sabtu, ahad n hari cuti dapat duit belanja 3300yen(rm132)sehari.

duit belanja untuk hari cuti masuk dlm akaun.

tp akaun nih hanya boleh simpan n keluar duit je..xboleh transfer2..

suica card.utk naik public transport esp train n shopping at certain stores mostly convenience stores..

60 000yen for 6months..duit suica nih pon depa bg,tp berperingkat..just flash the card at the counter :)

duit dlm ni pon xboleh tukar dgn cash..tp sure kejap je abis.

telefon card pon dapat.1050yen every month..i used it in 3days..abis dah..hahaha

nak kena cari kad yg lg best..if anyone has any recomendation

my own private phone..

1st time pinjam buku kat library...

hisashiburini bersukan...tennis,basketball n badminton.berpeluh2

dekat2 nk maghrib tu budak2 nih kena ambush dgn nyamuk..hehehe...musim panas nih nyamuk byk ptg2

malam pulak try test bilik karaoke..

becky(america),tama, ran & huong(vietnam)

me & wan in

jonathan(from madagascar) menyanyi sakan

kalau la kat rumah boleh ada satu set ni...

bukan karaoke je, alat2 music like guitar,piano,keyboard pon ada..ping pong pon ada

sekian laporan utk 1st week di urawa

;)

6 and counting...6∞

2011-09-16T00:45:00.001+09:00

he is The One

who always listen & tries to understand

(even when i'm not making much sense!)

who Laughs with me, not at me

(unless, of course, i do something really silly!)

who encourages mai crazy dreams, share mai dreams and make it his too

(come to think of it, having to stay in japan for the next 6 or 7years is indeed a crazy thing,no?)

who makes ordinary days seem extraordinary

(or at least not so boring! even just pergi kedai beli roti :))

who picks me up when i'm feeling down

(also carry me to bed when i'm pretending to sleep in the couch ;))

and cares, and shows it in soooooo many ways...

korekaramo ganbarou!

kokoro kara arigatou!!

Ittekimasu(Malaysia)...Tadaima(Japan)!

2011-09-13T21:45:00.000+09:00

~Rayyan Adam is 4years 1month 2weeks old~

~Rifqi Aydeen is 1year 4months 2weeks old~

12.09.2011(Monday) 10:00pm

berpeluk sakan dgn anak2..

the 4 of us

13.09.2011(Tuesday) around 4:00am

sunrise..

subhanallah..what a view!

lautan awan..

total distance around 5841km

japan from bird's view...sawah sana sini

natsukashii

mai room..very cozy! mcm bilik hotel..towel,tea,syampoo n body shower sudah tersedia

terus mencari wifi n webcam with the kids..

rayyan onichan :)

rifqi kun :)

watching them play together

senyuman manis dr adek rifqi

mai 1st dinner..

ptg tadi sempat jalan kaki temankan kawan pergi aeon(dulu namanya saty).shopping sket brg2 keperluan.masa pergi, tersesat sikit..hehehe..skg nih musim panas mmg mencabar berjalan kaki..plus, dah lama tak berjalan kaki jauh2.td cuba nk tido tp asyik terjaga2...hopefully malam nih dpt lelap dgn lena..esok ada opening ceremony n placement test...oral test pon ada katanya...

semoga dipermudahkan urusan pada hari esok

not bad for a 1st day!

MAK

2011-09-08T23:05:00.003+09:00

Rayyan is 4years 1month 2weeks old
Rifqi is 1year 4months 4days old

Al-Fatihah buat mak...

19.10.1936 ~ 06.09.2011

terima kasih atas doa dan kiriman al-fatihah daripada sahabat2 yg prihatin... semoga pahalanya sampai kepada mak di sana...

can't really write about mak at the moment..and i hate to tell the story over n over again..what difference does it make if i tell every details about her...the fact is she's gone. don't ask about her illness or how she died... the clear asnwer is Allah lebih sayangkan mak...please make peace with that. i don't like the negative vibe i feel each time remembering back her condition in the hospital.even tak sampai hati nk ambil gmbr mak terlantar di hospital.sayu hati tgk wajah mak.i don't want to remember that if possible.it's just too hard for me.just thinking about it makes me wanna cry... but, i have nothing to regret..sempat beraya dengan mak..sempat ambil gmbr banyak2 dengan mak.sempat jaga mak sepanjang 3hari dia di hospital...sempat peluk,sayang,cium mak walaupun mak xboleh membalas..paling tak boleh lupa, mak alirkan air mata dlm keadaan tak sedar semasa aku usap kepalanya..

everything seems to be very challenging for me these few months... and sometimes...i can't feel my heart...it is numb without feelings.... i keep telling myself, i have to move on...

gambar kenangan bersama mak di pagi syawal..

mak pergi genap 7hari syawal...26hari selepas pemergian abg halim

Ya Allah,

Ampunkanlah dosa2 ibuku

Terimalah segala amalan2 baiknya

Kasihanilah dia sebagaimana dia mengasihiku sewaktu aku kecil sehingga dewasa

Tempatkanlah dia dikalangan insan2 yg engkau kasihi

dan ampunkanlah dosa2ku, hambamu yg kerdil ini...

amin...

semoga kita bertemu di sana nnti ye mak...

Fadhilat ayat Kursi

2011-08-24T12:55:00.001+09:00

Dlm sebuah hadis, ada menyebut perihal seekor syaitan yg duduk diatas pintu rumah. Tugasnya ialah utk menanam keraguan di hati suami terhadap kesetiaan isteri di rumah dan keraguan dihati isteri terhadap kejujuran suami di luar rumah.

Sebab itulah Rasulullah tidak akan masuk rumah sehinggalah Baginda mendengar jawaban salam daripada isterinya. Disaat itu syaitan akan lari bersama-sama dengan salam itu.

Hikmat Ayat Al-Kursi mengikut Hadis-hadis:

1) Barang siapa membaca ayat Al-Kursi apabila berbaring di tempat tidurnya, Allah SWT mewakilkan dua orang Malaikat memeliharanya hingga subuh.

2) Barang siapa membaca ayat Al-Kursi di akhir setiap sembahyang Fardhu, dia akan berada dlm lindungan Allah SWT hingga sembahyang yang lain.

3) Barang siapa membaca ayat Al-Kursi di akhir tiap sembahyang,tidak menegah akan dia daripada masuk syurga kecuali maut dan barang siapa membacanya ketika hendak tidur, Allah SWT memelihara akan dia ke atas rumahnya,rumah jirannya dan ahli rumah-rumah disekitarnya.

4) Barang siapa membaca ayat Al-Kursi di akhir tiap2 sembahyang fardhu, Allah SWT menganugerahkan dia setiap hati orang yg bersyukur,setiap perbuatan orang yg benar,pahala nabi2 serta Allah melimpahkan padanya rahmat.

5) Barang siapa membaca ayat Al-Kursi sebelum keluar rumahnya, maka Allah SWT mengutuskan 70,000 Malaikat kepadanya - mereka semua memohon keampunan dan mendoakan baginya.

6) Barang siapa membaca ayat Al-Kursi di akhir sembahyang Allah SWT akan mengendalikan pengambilan rohnya dan dia adalah seperti orang yang berperang bersama Nabi Allah sehingga mati syahid.

7) Barang siapa yang membaca ayat Al-Kursi ketika dalam kesempitan nescaya Allah SWT berkenan memberi pertolongan kepadanya.

>> Subhanallah... Tujuh kalimat Sabda Rasulullah S.A.W " Barang siapa hafal tujuh kalimat, ia terpandang mulia di sisi Allah dan Malaikat serta diampuni dosa-dosanya walau sebanyak busa/buih laut "

1. Mengucap Bismillah pada tiap-tiap hendak melakukan sesuatu.

2. Mengucap Alhamdulillah pada tiap-tiap selesai melakukan sesuatu.

3. Mengucap Astagfirullah jika lidah tersilap perkataan yang tidak patut

4. Mengucap Insya Allah jika merencanakan berbuat sesuatu di hari esok.

5. Mengucap La haula wala kuwwata illa billah jika menghadapi sesuatu tak disukai dan tak diingini.

6. Mengucap inna lillahi wa inna ilaihi rajiun jika menghadapi dan menerima musibah.

7. Mengucap La ilaha illa Allah Muhammad Rasulullah sepanjang siang malam sehingga tak terpisah dari lidahnya dari tafsir hanafi,

mudah- mudahan ingat, walau lambat-lambat

mudah- mudahan selalu, walau sambil lalu

mudah- mudahan jadi bisa, karena sudah biasa!

wallahualam...

In Memory

2011-08-21T09:44:00.000+09:00

in preparation of migrating....

we have to sell this baby..

our 6th car

(bukan 6biji kereta kami ada..tp kereta yg ke-6 kami beli)

SOLD!

within a day of adevertisement...mcm goreng pisang panasss

alhamdulillah...urusan berjalan lancar

Trivia of Rayyan & Aydeen

2011-08-20T16:55:00.005+09:00

maybe its just a coincidence...

"Rayyan" is the name of a gate(Bab ur Rayyan) of Paradise which will be the enterance to the paradise for the people who practiced fasting . it also means a place where you get water..

“Sesungguhnya dalam syurga terdapat satu pintu yang dikenali dengan ar-Rayyan di mana yang berhak memasukinya hanya orang yang berpuasa. Apabila selesai masuk nescaya ditutupnya. (Hadis Imam Bukhari, Muslim dan Ahmad daripada sahabat Sahal bin Sa’d).”

and "Aydeen" means kembali kepada fitrah..as in lagu raya,'minal aidin wal faizin'.. 'minal aidin' means kembali kepada fitrah..

"dari segi bahasa, minal ‘aidin bererti “(semoga kita) termasuk orang-orang yang kembali.” Kembali di sini adalah kembali kepada fitrah, yakni “asal kejadian”, atau “kesucian”, atau “agama yang benar”.

Setelah mengasah dan mengasuh jiwa – iaitu berpuasa – selama satu bulan, diharapkan setiap Muslim dapat kembali ke asal kejadiannya dn menemukan “jati dirinya”, iaitu kembali suci sebagai mana ketika ia baru dilahirkan serta kembali mengamalkan ajaran agama yang benar. Ini semua menuntut keserasian hubungan, kerana – menurut Rasulullah – al-aidin al-mu’amalah, yakni keserasian dengan sesama manusia, lingkungan, dan alam." -google-

wallahualam...

Less than a month

2011-08-17T15:50:00.002+09:00

i'll leave for japan in less than a month... when i touch down in Japan the estimated temperature in saitama is 22.5deg and it'll decrease as low as 2deg as we reach the end of 2011.. this reminds me of my old days..i'm looking forward to autumn and winter this year..autumn is my favourite season... and i love winter too..bulky outfit, big 'transformers' like boot to prevent me from slipping on the ice on my way to school, umbrella is a must bring item and the most unforgetable thing during winter is waking up to an outstanding scenery where everything is covered with white snow outside mai window!

reminiscing the winter in Fukui

this picture was taken inside my university..when i look back i myself find it hard to believe that back then it was like this... fyi, it's hard to ride a bicycle in this kinda wheather but this guy is trying hard to move his bike. usually i ride my bike but during winter i walked to school everyday.i love looking around when the snow covered almost everything.i must say it was a nice walk(if you're not late for class..hehehe)

this is the truck to remove the snow from the road..it carries its job everyday

this is the scenery i woke up to during heavy snow days..this is my neighbour's house..

the kids going for school

the train and snow... miss fukui eki

that is ida..i walked behind her n snap her picture during our walk to school...

eh, byknyer ida bawa payung?? hik3

the flower that still bloom during winter

on weekends we'll head out outside fukui city area n play snow..this is what we discovered..cool huh? it's like an igloo

lie on the virgin snow..nih malam2 lps salji lebat turun..

play snow war n make handsome snowman at the park or right beside our house

and i'm looking forward to visit Tateyama Kurobe in Toyama again with hubby

admiring its mother nature beauty during winter

and more...

comforting maiself that there are a lot of things to look forward there...

and one day,

i'll bring Rayyan & Rifqi to join us to experience all these by themselves...

Perginya insan ibarat ayah

2011-08-12T13:12:00.000+09:00

benarlah kata2 imam ghazali, "apakah perkara yang paling dekat dengan manusia? jawapannya, MATI"

hari selasa yang lalu, 9hb ogos 2011 bersamaan dengan 9ramadhan 1432hijrah...abang halim(my brother) telah menerima jemputan Allah untuk bertemu denganNya. abg halim dimasukkan ke hospital pada 8hb(isnin) kerana dia mengadu penat sangat. i received the news on monday, but i just thought that nothing is serious. on tuesday, i attended my briefing session at JFKL and my sis said that he was doing fine...the doc need to monitor his heart.after dinner with the JFKL people, around 9pm i received another call from emirr saying that abg halim is critical and asked me to call my sis... before i did that, my sis call me telling me to come home as soon as possible as the doc claimed that abg halim might not have the chance(little that i know, at that same moment the doc was doing cpr for him to try and wake him up). i was so tired that day, my waist is aching dunno why and even so i was rushing to balik kampung as fast as i could.few minutes later, my nephew called saying that my brother is gone... all i can say was,"yeke? innalillah" without any tears... i don't know why i'm so calm. maybe he's gone so fast that it's hard for me to accept the fact that he's really gone

we headed for bp at 1045pm and reached there around 1am. jenazah sudah berada dirumah..ditengah2 ruang tamu tertutup rapi.jenazah sudah dimandikan dan dikapankan.menurut my sis, jenazah akan dikuburkan esok pagi jam 10.kulihat riak wajah mak sangat tenang. mak seakan redha dengan pemergian anak lelakinya yang masih bujang.kasihan emak diduga dengan kematian anak..ini yg kedua kalinya. i asked my sis what happened. it all happen so fast.my sis said that, on that day(tuesday) arwah was ok.it all happen lepas solat maghrib.arwah pergi ke surau hospital untuk solat maghrib.menurut orang yg duduk di katil berdekatan dengannya, selepas pulang dr solat, arwah baring di atas katil dan tiba2 terdengar bunyi benda jatuh.bila dilihat..arwah sudah nazak dan doktor,nurse datang...jantungnya semakin lemah... jam 1033mlm..arwah pergi meninggalkan kami.subhanallah, pemergiannya amat mudah, tidak menyusahkan kami sekeluarga, perginya dengan cara yang baik dalam bulan ramadhan... selepas dengar cerita from my sis, baru aku mencari kekuatan untuk duduk ditepi jenazah membacakan yasin. aku duduk disebelah kepala arwah...bermula sahaja baris pertama surah yasin, air mata jatuh tidak tertahan.segala kenangan bersama arwah kembali bermain diingatan.felt like he's watching me reciting yasin for him.

arwah adalah seorang yg sangat baik. dialah yg menggantikan kedudukan seorang ayah dlm hidupku.kalau kecik2 dulu, cikgu panggil ibu bapa datang sekolah..dialah yang akan mewakilkan mak.kalau ada budak2 nakal kacau adik bongsunya, dia akan memarahi budak2 tu...kalau ada urusan apa2 yang memerlukan penjaga, dia yg akan mengambil alih semua tanggungjawab.sayangnya arwah kepadaku...teringat aku waktu dulu2,balik sekolah agama..arwah menjemputku dengan motor besarnya..aku kekok naik motor tu sbb besar sgt n bila duduk kat belakang aku jadi tinggi.tp angin kuat kena kat tudung,seronok... arwah suka sangat pada budak2...alhamdulillah, walaupon tidak berkesempatan untuk bertemu arwah pada hari2 terakhirnya, kami sempat berjumpa pada 1ramadhan yg lalu..rayyan & rifqi pon sangat rapat dengannya..walaupon hanya mengenalinya sekejap2 jer.sempat jugak aku ambil gmbr arwah bersama rifqi pada 1ramadhan lalu

ceria sungguh arwah ketika ini...

namun Allah lebih menyayanginya..selang seminggu kemudian, Allah ambil dia dari pangkuan kami.

jenazah arwah sesampainya kami ke rumah

wajah mak... melihat wajah mak yg begitu tenang membuat hatiku sayu..apabila jasad anaknya diangkat untuk dibawa pergi, mak mengesat airmatanya membuat aku lebih sebak... tabahnya mak!

jenazah dibawa keluar dari rumah ibunya

disolatkan...

dibawa ke tanah perkuburan

dimasukkan ke liang lahad dan dikambuskan

teringat kata,'asal kita dari tanah, dan kepada tanah jua kita dikembalikan'

abang halim sudah berpindah 'rumah'..berpindah alam...semoga rohnya bahagia disana dan ditempatkan dikalangan insan2 yg dikasihi Allah.

kali ini aku menyaksikan urusan pengebumian arwah... sewaktu kakak sulung(kak yah) pergi meninggalkan kami, aku di jepun... ralatnya aku kerana tidak dapat berjumpa dengannya..dia umpama ibu keduaku.kali ini,aku tidak mahu melepaskan peluang menjadi saksi kepada perginya seorang lagi insan yang aku kasihi.semua ini membuat aku terfikir, bagaimana sekiranya itu adalah aku?? jika aku yg dikapankan..jika aku yg diyasinkan,jika aku yg disolatkan, jika aku yg dikebumikan, jika aku yg ditalkinkan...jika AKU? sudahkah aku bersedia? subhanallah!! bila aku pandang ke langit, bila aku lihat pokok2, burung2, wajah suami, mak, adik beradik yg lain, saudara mara..betapa semua ini akan aku tinggalkan...dan aku akan menghadap Allah dengan hanya roh berbekalkan amalan yg tidak cukup(bilakah akan dikira cukup?)

sungguh hidup ini singkat..sungguh hidup ini tempat mencari saham untuk dibawa ke sana...sungguh selama ini banyak yg aku alpa...sungguh diri ini lemah

sesungguhnya, menyaksikan suatu kematian mendidik hati agar sedar bahawa dunia hanya sementara, sekejap dan ajal tidak kira masa...

al-fatihah~

abang halim, isnyaAllah kita berjumpa semula suatu hari nanti

Ultimately, it's between us & Allah

2011-08-12T12:05:00.000+09:00

seringkali hidup dalam dunia ini, kita ditemukan dengan orang2 yang memberi inspirasi, kata2 yang memberi semangat dan rangsangan, kejadian yang memberi kita pengajaran. banyak yang sebenarnya membantu kita dalam proses kita mendidik hati menjadi yang lebih baik.namun, fitrah manusia, seringkali leka dan lupa... terutama diri ini yang mudah lupa. sebagai inisiatif untuk mengingatkan diri dan sebagai rujukan masa akan datang bila diperlukan, i write it all here..in mai chamber!

kata2 yang i quote from my fav motivator, Prof Dr. Muhaya..beliau pulak dpt drpd orang lain..tapi kata2 yang indah itu kan sedekah..kita panjang2kan insyaAllah ada berkat :)

"Hidup di dunia ini,

Bersyukurlah kepada orang yang menyakitimu kerana dia mengajarmu supaya lebih TABAH,

Bersyukurlah kepada orang yang menipumu kerana dia meningkatkan PENGETAHUANmu,

Bersyukurlah kepada orang yang memulaukanmu kerana dia memupukmu untuk lebih BERDIKARI,

Bersyukurlah kepada orang yang menjatuhkanmu, kerana dia memPERHEBATKAN lagi KREDIBILITImu,

Bersyukurlah kepada orang yang mengujimu, kerana dia MENGUATKAN KESABARANmu..."

Because at the end of the day..

it is not between us n those people...

it is all between us & Allah

Briefing session

2011-08-09T08:13:00.001+09:00

i'll be attending a briefing session about my long-course programme at the Japan Foundation KL from 2pm until 7pm today. JFKL HQ is next to the midvalley megamall.. maybe i can do some window shopping...heheh..sempat lagi! owh, yeah..yesterday PM just annoounced that gov servants are gonna get half-month salary bonus...alhamdulillahh...syukur rezeki Allah bagi dlm bulan ramadhan...

anyway, back to my story.. this briefing session is mainly to explain to candidates about the course.and i was asked to get my PMP(personal mini project) ideas ready.we're gonna have consultation(i have no idea how it's gonna be), and there'll be a presentation on that later the same day.i've not done any presentation on any research like in 4years.last time was my final year degree presentation. hopefully i can present well and generate my ideas clearly,insyaAllah. other than me, another person from penang, a chinese (dunno girl/guy) is gonna take part too..and i thought i was going to japan alone... great thing to know that i'll have company.yeayy!! after the session, they are gonna bring us for dinner(in my case buka puasa)... i refused to join the dinner but they insisted..well, rezeki jangan ditolak kan? they said it's gonna be washoku..sukaa2!!

on other matter, i've received all the documents regarding my departure..my flight schedule, my visa application which is completed, just wait to be collected i don't know when, and my schedule for the next 6months.never had a full schedule for a long time...looking at the schedule, i can see that i'll be busy..back to being a student...excitement?? yeah..a little :)

so, please pray for my success today!

and i hope you all have a blast tuesday :))

Rifqi the Rider..err Spider?

2011-08-07T14:50:00.000+09:00

rifqi really loves rides...unlike rayyan who refuse to ride any of this thing dulu2..or if he does,always rides half way..don't know why..maybe he's afraid of the thing moving n making sounds... but rifqi loves it! pantang nampak kenderaan2 comel tu,mesti tunjuk2 nak naik...kalau dah naik,xnak turun!

pegang stering kuat2

naik bas sekolah pulak

abg rayyan jadi passenger

mighty mouse pulak..again,abg rayyan passenger jer

main kat playground dlm alamanda

budak ini sangat lincah ke sana ke mari

xlarat mama dia kejar,dia dah sampai atas nun

si abang pon xmenyempat2..sampai tergolek adek dibuatnya

aksi spiderman in action..

seriously mama cuak sbb rasa cam adek baru je pandai jalan dah boleh memanjat2 camni..

lps main, shopping pulak

main dgn yiaw pulak

ok abis dah cerita...

selamat berpuasa...apa juadah berbuka harini?

:))

Setiap anak itu istimewa

2011-08-06T00:47:00.001+09:00

sejauh mana kelakuan seorang anak itu boleh kita consider as 'nakal'? rasanyer ramai ibu2 yang risau kalau kelakuan anak2 mereka dipandang serong...atau lebih menyakitkan kalau ada yang menegur biar pun kata2 itu berlapik.sebagai seorang yang melahirkan, membesarkan dan mendidik, tak banyak sedikit akan terasa kalau teguran terhadap anak2 itu disebabkan oleh sikap mereka yang mungkin bagi setengah2 golongan agak 'tak berkenan'.. lain orang, bergantung kepada cara mereka dibesarkan,dididik dan environment sekeliling mempunyai persepsi yang berbeza mengenai hal ini...tapi bagi saya setiap anak2 itu istimewa dengan cara mereka tersendiri dan buruk atau baik, pujian atau teguran yang diberi atas sikap mereka semua adalah tanggungjawab kita sebagai ibu bapa...

persoalannya, kategori bagaimanakah yang diklasifikasikan sebagai 'nakal' itu sendiri? kita sedia maklum, kanak2 suka meneroka, suka mencuba apa yang ada disekeliling..lagi dilarang, lagi wujud rasa ingin tahu apa akan berlaku sekiranya mereka melanggar larangan tersebut...rasanya kita pon sama jer kecik2 dulu.kalau kata 'jangan usik'..mungkin masa kita ada dia xberani buat..tp bila kita takde,dia try..for example, rayyan. selalu dah pesan kat dia, "rayyan kalau nak tulis..tulis kat kertas or book ok?" masa tu mmg dia angguk,ok saja..tapi pernah satu hari, balik kerja tgk ada lukisan ala2 lernardo da vinci kat dinding ruang tamu yang dicat oleh mamanya waktu pregnant rifqi 3bulan...mai reaction, of course rasa nak marah..1st sebab dah pesan, 2nd sebab penat mama cat dinding tu nak oiii!

tapi benda dah jadi, nak marah lebih2 pon buang masa n tenaga.i just confront him, tanya dia siapa buat..dia kata,"rayyan yang buat".. ok fine..bagus anak mama jujur orangnya."kenapa tulis kat dinding?lainkali tulis kat kertas tau..dinding tak boleh"..senyap jer... and a few weeks later, ada lagi karya baru yg wujud di dinding...tegur lagi..next dia conteng sarung cushion guna permanent marker pen dakwat merah lagi..bukan tu je,siap lukis2 kat tempat soket plug, kat kuku kaki dia sekali...mama dia xpernah lak mewarna kuku..aishh,anak..anak..

dalam kes nih, adakah ini nakal? adakah ini namanya tak dengar kata? adakah reaksi kita memarahi after one another? atau senyum kata takpe? see? bukan senang jadi parents kan? bila orang datang rumah kita tengok dinding kita penuh dengan karya agung anak2, apakah reaksi mereka agak2nya? someone said to me,' ko tak bagi dia kertas ke mai?', 'lenkali ko letak siap2 board tpt dia conteng so that everytime dia nak melukis dia tulis la kat situ..', 'sorokkan la pen apa sume...xde la menyonteng sana sini',' anak2 akak dari kecik mmg xberani conteng2 dinding' (anak awak dgn anak saya kena sama ke perangainye??)...hmm, kalau nak tahu, buku2 mmg diletak ditempat yg sangat senang nak dicapai oleh both kids..mmg dah beli board, tp end up pen itu tetap nk dicuba tulis ditempat2 lain.biasalah nak eksperimen.. bab banding2 anak ni mmg tak layan... kalau semua budak sama, alamat kita nih macam robot laa..saya dgn awak pon perangai kena sama la? boleh?

so, adakah kita sanggup memarahi anak2 hanya untuk puaskan hati orang lain, or hati kita sendiri yg bengang dengan teguran orang lain..setiap anak2 kita bina dengan tangan kita sendiri... i learned that kita tak boleh nk marah2 sangat anak2..teguran keras mungkin perlu tapi jangan sampai tahap melabel anak2 kita sebagai 'nakal, 'tak dengar kata', xboleh ditegur' dan sebagainya...apatah lagi ibu yang mana doa kita tiada hijab dengan Allah...apa yang kita fikir, apa yang kita fokus akan membesar..baik ita fokus pada sifat2 positif anak2 kita daripada risau fikir ok ke tak anak aku ni? baik kita pulangkan urusan itu kepada Dia yang lebih mengenali anak2 kita...minta diberi kekuatan untuk mendidik anak2 agar menjadi orang yang baik.

anak2 terbina atas imej diri yg kita beri kepada mereka...umur 0~7tahun budak2 serap apa jer yang dia dengar, nampak dan alami especially dpd kita mak ayah. someone i respect said that, kalau anak2 kita kurang ajar, bukan salah mereka tp salah kita yang kurang mengajar...dan cara mengajar itu bukan semestinya dengan kekerasan tapi lebih kepada cara berhikmah dan perbuatan... budak2 pon bukannya perfect macam jugak kita..kalau hari ni tegur tak semestinya mereka terus jadi baik..naluri ingin tahu tu,tak boleh la kita nafikan...mereka belajar dalam pada mereka bermain..mereka belajar dalam mana mereka melihat apa yg berlaku disekeliling mereka...sebab tu ada kata2 'anak2 adalah cermin kepada ibu bapa'..dan anak2 ini, suka akan pujian..kalau dipuji mesti senyum meleret2 n dia akan teruja nk buat kebaikan tu lagi dan lagi...bila dipuji tenaga mereka meningkat.mereka akan jadi orang yang positif...seronok kan kalau tgk anak2 itu jadi positif.didik diri mereka bahawa kalau dia buat baik kita bg kredit, kalau dia buat benda yg kita tak suka, kita buat tak layan...i myself dlm proses mempraktikkan taktik ini sentiasa... sama2 kita cuba :)

dan sebelum kita nak anak2 kita jadi baik, kita sendiri kena didik diri menjadi baik dan lebih baik...kita kena jadi perubahan apa yang kita nak orang lain jadi..kalau kita nk anak2 menjaga aurat, kita dulu,mesti menjaga aurat kita...saya menyeru diri saya sendiri...

hanya berkongsi pendapat dan pengalaman bahawa tiada anak2 yang tidak baik...cara kita mencorakkan dia yang menentukan nanti besarnya menjadi insan atau raksasa yang bakal makan diri kita sendiri...sama2 kita kongsikan ilmu yang diberikan oleh mai favourite tok guru;

Spider Comel

2011-08-02T18:12:00.000+09:00

topeng spiderman nih rayyan yg punya...satu set dgn baju sekali..tp abg rayyan selalu jual mahal xnak pakai topeng tu.. so, papa yang pakai jadi bapak-spider dalam rumah sambil kejar budak2 nih..

aktiviti balik kerja

rayyan cuba bertarung dengan bapak-spider sambil digelakkan oleh adek rifqi

lepas tu, rayyan pulak pakaikan adek rifqi..dia xnak pakai,suruh org lain yg pakai

inilah hasilnya...

adek spider yang sangat comel dan xganas

adek spider bila dah penat~

aksi berkejaran spider lari2 keliling rumah

All the best Papa RA

2011-07-31T10:09:00.001+09:00

~Rayyan Adam is 4years 5days old~

~Rifqi Aydeen is 1year 3months 3weeks 6days old~

these 2weeks papa is busy with his interviews...last week, he went to singapore for a live video interview with company in japan... alhamdulillah, the interview went well. on thursday, he called me from work and told me he got the job! i'm not that surprised because i knew from the start that he's gonna get it..naluri instict hati isteri mithali..hik3

1st mission done!

and last night, he went for his 2nd job interview in Japan..eventho he already had the job he wanted, but he's still gonna make the best for this interview...he studied everyday..lama xnmpk dia stay up buat keje...this time, they want him to sit for an exam..i tried their sample questions n quit halfway...haven't touch maths questions like in 4years n i'm already lost... hehehhe..

while waiting for papa to check in

enjoying himself walking everywhere

supporter papa no.2..no.1 ikut ummi dia balik kampung

papa,

we're so PROUD of you...

how you never give up to try the best,

and do the best for us

semoga urusan papa dipermudahkan Allah...

we miss you already!!

Mai kids are mai soul

2011-07-27T01:11:00.003+09:00

mai kids are mai soul...they are the main reason i'm smiling everyday, the one that keeps me strong and grow. the ones that teach me patience and positivity...they are my addiction!!

setiap kali berpisah dgn anak2, sekalipun hanya untuk sejam dua, i'll hug them very tight and kiss them a lot... i wouldn't dare walk out the door without hugging or kissing them even knowing they'll cry seeing me in nice dresses bertudung siap,but leaving them behind... leaving them quietly just for the sake of not wanting to make them cry is never an option. i mean, i'd rather see them crying knowing me leaving rather than leaving them quietly...afraid that, that's gonna be my last hug.you never know right?

i understand, we especially mothers are very attached to our kids. it is almost hard to leave them even for an hour. my kids especially rifqi mmg xboleh berenggang.kalau ada kat rumah mmg senantiasa nak melepek sebelah mama...kalau letak sebelah pon xmau..nak kena berdukung juga.tu yg sampai kes, mama masuk toilet dia nak teman jugak.

see his make-pity faces sambil peluk kaki xbg lepas.....
mmg cair la hati mama dia..huhuhu

don't get me wrong.it doesn't mean that i don't like my kids being this way...to be frank, i'm quite relief they can't resist me they way they are irresistable to me. that way i know that they need me, love me :) and i don't mind having to hold them while cooking just to stop them from crying, i don't mind giving them the attention they want as much as i can give... i just can't stand seeing them sad or dissapointed..

sometimes distance is good. an hour distance, a day distance is a nice therapy i think. it makes us appreciate our children more.even when we're at work, we can't help but to think about our kids at home/nursery..are they having a good day, are they eating well, what are they watching on tv, do they coop well with their sibblings/friends...are they ok? that's the credit of being a full-time-housewives(FTHW) i guess...they got to see their kids grow every minute, shape their kids the way they want without bad influences from outsiders, and the kids are like their Masters/PhD thesis... there's no bigger success that seeing your kids grow being a good caliphs,kan? so, to mothers who are a FTHW, jgn ambik pusing kata2 yang mengecil2kan anda.walaupon anda pemegang diploma,degree,master hatta phd sekalipon, pahala yg anda kumpul kerana menjadi ibu sepenuh masa kepada anak2 dan isteri sepenuh masa yang menjaga kebajikan dirumah insyaAllah jaaauuuhhh lebih hebat drpd saya yg bekerja.bayangkan,sekali kita pandang anak2 dengan penuh kasih sayang, itu sudah pahala, belum lagi kita yg suapkan makannya, memakaikan pakaiannya, mengajar mereka secara langsung atau tidak, menidurkan mereka, memberi kata2 perangsang kepada mereka etc.kadang2 pernah juga tahu yg ibu2 sepenuh masa ni susah hati kerana tidak dpt membantu ibu bapa yg membesarkan mereka kerana tiada pendapatan tetap setiap bulan.mengambil kata2 seorang tok guru yg saya hormati, walaupon ibu2 sepenuh masa ini tidak bekerja dan tiada pendapatan untuk membantu ibu bapa mereka sendiri, ingatlah bahawa ketaatan anda kepada suami anda dan usaha anda menjadi ibu kepada anak2 anda ada bahagian(pahala) kepada ibu bapa anda.pahala itu mengalir kepada mereka dengan syarat kita menjaga hak2 kita sebagai isteri spt menunaikan solat, menutup aurat dan melaksanakan kewajipan yg wajib lainnya dan meninggalkan laranganNya.insyaAllah...Allah kan Maha Kaya! (eh, macam lari topik pulak..heheh)

anyway, i'm leaving rayyan n rifqi at my in laws just now after celebrating rayyan's birthday..my mom needs my maid's help so, the kids have to tag along...God, it was hard to let go! bukan lama pon,xsampai 24hours...but the feelings of not being able to sleep with them, hug them at night, wake up to their beautiful smiles and all makes it hard to let go... rayyan salam, hug me, kiss me at both my cheeks n forehead(tiru papa dia..huhuh), but still it's not enough..hug rifqi sooooo tight,kiss him hard but still, it's not enough...Subhanallah, ini baru dugaan kecil.

when i told my friends, families about me going away for 6months leaving the kids behind, some are being so sceptical. i know there's a lot to go through but at the same time, it's not impossible. i'm seriously trying to be very positive about this matter from the 1st time i took the decision to go. everyday i keep telling myself that i'm gonna be okay. i'm hoping others wouldn't pity me but please pray for me...pray that Allah would grant me the strength, the love, the sanity to survive. Please stop worrying about me..insyaAllah, i'll be fine... i know i'll be fine... and to friends who keep me strong, trust in me and tune me into being positive, may Allah repay your kindness! i hope nothing more than your doa'.

ramadhan is approaching... bulan yang mulia untuk meminta kepadaNya...bulan untuk menggandakan pahala...bulan yg penuh rahmah. semoga Allah beri kekuatan, hidayah, kasih sayang, dan pertolonganNya kepada kita semua....

Rayyan is 4!

2011-07-26T20:55:00.000+09:00

selamat hari lahir rayyan oniichan! pejam celik dah 4tahun anak mama...semakin hari, semakin petah, lincah, caring, bijak, handsome, mature dan sweet! kalau nk disenaraikan pengalaman berhadapan dengan keletah si anak ini, xtersenarai rasanya..kalau bole, every precious moment tu nk record n simpan buat tatapan anakanda bila dewasa nnti..

on the same date 4years ago

43days old

5months old

8months old

10months old

10months..macam rifqi cuma rayyan kepala lagi bulat :)

11months old

1year old @ Fukui

2years old

3years old

and Rayyan today @ 4 years old

temankan adek rifqi check up n tak mandi lagi

4sai desu~

the sweet ever face!

semoga Rayyan dikurniakan Allah kesihatan rohani,fizikal dan emosi yang baik...dimurahkan rezeki, ditajamkan akal dan menjadi anak yang soleh memimpin mama & papa ke syurga

Burt's Bees shampoo review

2011-07-25T10:19:00.001+09:00

as i promised ~~ages ago.~~.. i'm gonna give you'll who've been asking about the burt's bees product especially their shampoos range... specifically i'mm gonna write about the one that i'm currently using, the More Moisture Raspberry & Brazil Nut Shampoo & it's conditioner ..the main ingredients in these two is rasberry extract which is rich with antioxidants.let me make it in points

the 1st thing i love about these product line is that they are all made from natural product and they even wrote it on the bottle.like the ones i'm using,shampoo is 98.12% natural whilst the conditioner is 97.52% from natural ingedients...don't u just love it!you won't feel bad using an almost 100% organic skin care/hair care etc. would you?..no harm to the environment and definitely skin friendly...
the smell..oh,the smell makes me goes oohh..ahhhs..and fresh every after wash...like i wanna wash my hair daily...i think that's not a bad idea because it's mostly organic,no? my hubby even compliment my smell and he's loving it too...no more suns*lk after this, i guess
the way it maintain my hair volume even after i took my scarf off...u see, before this..everytime i took off my scarf from a long day at work...my hair will look dull and penyek..if u know what i mean...it's like silky, and no volume at all...that makes my hair rasa cam terkepuk..kepam..that sort of feelings... but burt's bees shampoo, keep my hair volume and i don't feel my hair like terpenyek anymore...the volume stays! i likee!! this is the biggest reason i'm gonna stay with these babies~~..until i get bored~~ beautiful,healthy hair naturally
i think those 3 sums up everything well enough..hehehe..i'm literally going nuts about these 2!

of course, the price is way higher than the previous S*nsilk product i've been using...alah membeli,menang memakai kan...it's around rm50++ per bottle if i'm not mistaken..

next, is the rosewater...i love this toner ..99.98%natural.. :))) for me, this toner is not in much different from the other products i've used but it's more soothing n cooling..it comes in a glass packaging...quite heavy n definitely not baby friendly(of course laa kan? it's not like a baby's gonna use it in any way)..sangat bahaya ok,kalau any of my boys yg juga eager dgn makeup capai n drop it! horror!! ke jatuh xpecah??hehehe..

other than the hair products, i bought their Tinted Lip Balm in red dahlia.seriously i'm in love with this lip balm..fyi, lip balm is one my must-have-thing inside my purse.my lips always gets dry n this is my savior... it gives a sweet fruity smell and it doesn't feel melekit2..it contains shea butter that helps nourishing addition moisturizers, reduction of wrinkles and to improve the elasticity of the skin and protect it against environmental aging.

one more lip balm is the Super Glossy Lip Shine .. love this too.i got this for free! although the name is super glossy,it doesn't glitters like some gloss do..featured ingredients in this lip shine is sweet almond oil.love this one too.the best thing about both of the lips product is that they are 100% natural!! unfortunately, i misplace both of them..being a person who always switch handbags...this things always happens and it always involves the things i love..missing in action!

(pictures from burt's bees)

and i also get these trial set of deep cleansing cream and deep pore scrub.. tried both.the cleansing is like minty after wash..muka rasa berangin.n jangan sampai termasuk mata sbb agak pedih sbb dia berangin... not really fancy this tho.. but the scrub is ok..it's just that i rarely use scrubs...so, can't really say much..

apart from that, burt's bees also have ranges of product for babies,men and many more.. i bought mine at sunway piramid..i don't know their other outlet but i really hope they have stores in japan..if not i might have to bring those shampoos along...hik3..

owh, and that rm10 voucher.. i forgot i have it! must check the expired date..kalau tak rugi!!

so,to those who're looking for a new hair product, i highly recommend you burt's bees hair care!!

i'm thinking about trying their skin care products later.this almost 100% natural products definitely is alluring!

next,i'm gonna give review about some of the Yves Rocher product i bought last week.anyone's using it?

sharing is caring,right??

bye2,darlings!

have a good monday!!

p/s: good luck to my hunny-bunny-hubby..semoga Allah permudahkan segalan urusannya

jijahh..oh,jijahh!

2011-07-19T11:07:00.000+09:00

setelah sekian lama menyepi..akhirnya Allah temukan kembali kami...sangat la happy mendengar khabar berita dari sahabatku ini...azizah namanyer..pelajar short course dari indonesia yg kebetulan satu bilik research masa kat Fukui University 5tahun lalu...azizah nih dah macam adik sendiri..ke mana kami( me & ida) pergi mmg selalu bawa dia sama2..dan dia nih sangatlah baik hati n peramah orangnyer...alhamdulillah,Allah sambung semula ukhwah kami...nice to hear that she's gonna further her study to taiwan n getting married end of this year...

these memories with you are precious

jalan2 hiroshima

graduation day

hutan mana tah kat fukui nunnn

kaiten zushi with senpai lab..(aduhh..lupa namanya!)

at kosmos garden

ida's birthday(kek yg ada lilin tu saya buat tauu..hihihi)..byk betul kek harijadi ida

mikata goko...5tasik di mikata..

inilah kaki jalan fukui!

AZIZAH, i miss you!! mai doakan yang terbaik buat zizah!

sorry,mai byk dah lupa indonesian words yg zizah ajar dulu..hehehe..

apapun, hope to meet you one day dear!

Rifqi starts walking independently

2011-07-08T10:33:00.002+09:00

rayyan started walking at the age of 1year old..that time we're in japan for a short stay... i still remember vividly how he walked n fell over n over again n never complain or stop trying... he's one brave boy!

now, rifqi has started walking himself...he's now 1year 2months..i was kinda worry if i'm not given the chance to witness his first step before september... i think it'll keep me at ease to go only after i watch all of his early years achievements n being among the first to see him making his first steps is one of my dream.alhamdulillah, Allah granted my wish. i'm too excited about it!! seriously... i took him to the mall to experience the escalator, gave him the freedom to go anywhere in the wide space in his tiny shoes(well,actually it was rayyan's..hehehe..waris kat adik), took him to the playground and Subhanallah he's just as excited as i am! sweating all over his body...

so this is the video i took yesterday after coming back from work...rifqi's trying to open the gate and after this video was taken badan dia tersepit in between it..heheheh..tp buat muka cool je xnanges pon!

this is him walking and singing!! bukan main bahagia dia dapat jalan2 atas jalan

alhamdulillah!

omedetou rifqi aydeen!!

mmmuuaahh

:))

2more left

2011-07-06T12:26:00.000+09:00

recent status on the iphone sleeves...only 2more left

flower & ladybug

RM15

colourful inner fabric matching with outer fabric

smart stripes

RM12

with polka dot inner fabric

all sleeve can fit iphone 3 & iphone 4

snuggly &nicely

washable

layered with cotton batting to add extra cushion

(if you accidently drop your phone with the sleeve insyaAllah less shock to the phone)

comes with a tab to easily pull in n out your phone

any inquiries/order

please leave a comment or email me @

mysara_23@yahoo.com

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thank you for viewing!

Mai very 1st skirt

2011-07-03T09:09:00.008+09:00

been thinking about making mai own skirt for a long time..but i don't have the guts to cut a huge fabric ending up fail or not satisfied with the end result.plus, i don't have baby girl in the house to make as a model .. but last night(early morning actually.heheh) i made this petite skirt for a 2year old girl..her birthday was last month..so this is as her belated birthday gift..and a trial for me to make a my 1st move on making skirts.to be frank, i'm enjoying it! of course there's sticthing n unstiching process along the way but i'm loving it...maybe i should try getting myself into little girls stuff... and later find my way on making dresses for girls pulak...heheheh

i made this 3 tiered skirt using the jersey fabric my sister gave me sometime ago...this is my first time using this kind of fabric and really it is challenging but i find it easy to make the ruffle with jerseys...3tiered is harder that the normal simple skirt but it's worth the try.i have many more jerseys to get them into shape of something...but i have yet to find the ideas..

this is the cute skirt

i mesure rayyan n rifqi's waist as the guideline to the little girl's waist..agak2 lebih kurang.hopefully she fits into it

the best thing about jersey is that you don't have to serge :)

i'm excited to make my own skirt

Pre-ordered tote bags

2011-07-01T09:28:00.000+09:00

more orders are coming in for tote bags..alhamdulillah..dalam kesibukan kerja n family sempat juga menyiapkan order sedikit demi sedikit...sewing turns out to be mai teraphy..it's not big money but the satisfaction of seeing the end result is a bliss... i'm in love with sewing!

these 3bags were ordered by syana,my friend and who's also my neighbour, for her blog giveaway contest which ended last week...

colourful fredrika fabric tote

red,orange,white n yellow in the inside

cheerful gunilla fabric tote

blue,green n white stripes inside

minna fabric in dark blue tote with flower line

blue & white flower motif in the inside

hope the person who wins it loves it

thank you syana for your purchase!

Wordless Wednesday

2011-06-29T09:47:00.000+09:00

snugg iphone sleeve

2011-06-26T12:36:00.007+09:00

baby blue flower

RM15

(reserved)

colourful inner fabric with the same tone

flower & ladybug

RM15

colourful inner fabric matching with outer fabric

eiffel tower

RM15

(reserved)

white & pink inner

black & white flower

RM12

spider web

RM12

with stripes inner

smart stripes

RM12

with polka dot inner fabric

all sleeve can fit iphone 3 & iphone 4

snuggly & nicely

layered with cotton batting to add extra cushion

(if you accidently drop your phone with the sleeve insyaAllah less shock to the phone)

comes with a tab to easily pull in n out your phone

any inquiries/order

please leave a comment or email me @

mysara_23@yahoo.com

or facebook me @ maisarah kamal

thank you for your support!!

"I Loike It!" Giveaway Contest.

2011-06-24T12:58:00.001+09:00

frankly, i love to do many things..from eating good food, vacation to nice places especially beaches, shopping, sports like bowling, basketball to the motherly stuff like sewing(more to crafting actually),cooking and playing with the kids..but above all, the one thing i like without feeling bored is TAKING PICTURES of my 2RA.Rayyan Adam & Rifqi Aydeen...mai love towards pictures started since i was a child..back then our family can't afford to buy cameras and all that we have only few albums at home..of course i don't have tons of pictures like my boys have now and so i really treasure each and every piece of mai childhood memory.and those pictures are among the things that keep happy.funny!

one of my childhood pictures

tgk telefon tu masih lagi yg style putar2 nombornya...

i started having my own camera when i first went to japan,the first week..that's the first thing i bought! it's red and very slim..the slimmest camera in 2003.it caught many memorable moments between me,mai friends and my other half ;)

some pictures from thousands during my uni days..which i love looking at

a memory with my broken hand from snowboard incident...3months dengan simen

trip tp kyoto with friends..one of the places i love

disney sea with b.i.l

kyoto during autumn,my favourite season ..

the red leaves are sooo beautiful beyond words

feast on good food with friends

snowboard during winter..although i fell most of the time rather than sliding

my bestest friends on earth..imfeen during job fair in tokyo

final presentation...alhamdulillah, went through it well while i'm 4months pregnant!

i didn't remember who took this picture..this is us waiting for our turn to present..

you can't tell how cuak we are!

during those days, i love playing with pictures too...this is some of my art

collages

i manage to capture the moon from my balcony clearly..i must say, i'm always amazed by the moon i saw in japan..it's biggg and subhanallah very beautiful

my graduation pictures...see the 2of us girls in the middle..the other 70 are boys.. :)

now, in the era of DSLR...more and more people are enjoying taking pictures...while they enjoy taking pictures i maiself enjoy looking at them...seriously, is there anyone who doesn't like pictures? there's a saying,"a picture speaks a thousands words".with these days social networking and all, parading pictures of you and your family makes us feels closer with accquantaince and family ain't it? the more reason to love about pictures!

as for me, mai best models would be nature and my family, especially my children..if you should know mai iphone contains 2,621precious pictures and movies as for now...most of them featuring rayyan n rifqi.i've got rifqi's pictures from the day he was born up till now...i would snap their picture almost everyday..be it smiling, laughing, crying, crawling,jumping ..just about everything!!eventhough it's just a camera phone, the pictures are not sharp and almost everytime blurry because kids can't stand still for long, can they...the memory inside them are the things that counts.quality comes last when you have your loved ones in a pictures with their most natural action full of love...sharp or not sharp,you just can't care enough.you've been there, and the pictures helps bringing you back to that moment..

Rayyan Adam

Rifqi Aydeen

kejakunan melihat parit di kampung

i'm still smiling no matter how many times i see the same pictures

these pictures i collect will definitely accompany me when i'm away from them insyaAllah...i can just switch on mai iphone,turn on my hard disk, look at their pictures n movies to keep me sane :)) the smile that comes unintentionally to my face proves that i feel love just by looking at their frozen images..

they are mai most precious and valued possessions i'll cherish until forever

the magical of pictures..and that's why "I LOIKE IT!!" hehehe

cukup sudah merapu+berangan!!

so, let's join the boat and take part in the constest(which will end today at 12midnight!!)

what you have to do to take part is simply put this banner down here in you blog after writing a post/entry about the things you like to do along with your picture... put the title "I Loike It!" Giveaway Contest. and tag your friends to join

more info at anna-banana

and so, i'm tagging YOU who read this..hehehe.gotcha!! well if you would like to join of course..if not, no paksa2..it's a free world..eh,apa merepek..

yg lain,

fith

ilyana

murni

happy friday everyone!!!

Weaning off Aydeen

2011-06-21T16:50:00.000+09:00

~Rayyan Adam is 3years 10months handsome~

~Rifqi Aydeen is 1year 1month 2weeks cute~

Alhamdulillah... Rifqi has weaned off completely genap usia setahun..dah lebih sebulan cerai susu.seriously, it's a tough desicion to wean him off this early..might due to me over worrying about things..rayyan weaned off from fully breastfeeding at the age of 1year 8months...rifqi only manage to fully breastfeed for 1year..alhamdulillah, he's one easy baby to handle..no need any tricks to stop him..rayyan dulu kena letak vicks laa...tipu2 la..rifqi nih slumber tak kesah...sumbat formula milk pon dia hentam je minum takde tolak2...he made it all so easy for me..sangat2 syukur la rifqi nih dari lahir sampai sekarang senang je nak manage everything...the reason of weaning him 8months earlier than rayyan and a year earlier than plan was because i'm going away for 6months...didn't know it would be this easy to wean him or else i would start later..

and inspite that, he's very...very..attach to me.. pantang nampak kelibat mama dia, terus menerpa...you should see how he crawls with the speed of running...seriously, kalau ada pertandingan merangkak i think he'll win 1st prize :) i love the fact that he's close to me..rayyan dah macam menjauhkan diri sikit bg space kat adik dia..kadang2 dia mengalah kalau mama tgh peluk dia, adik dia menyelit masuk...tp rayyan big boy kan? nnti ada adik lain lagi(ecehh), rifqi pulak kena mengalah...apapun, semua anak2 mama sayang sama rata jer..bila anak2 dah rapat mcm tu, is it gonna make it easier for you to leave? i can't..don't want to..refuse to think about it just yet..because i'm scared of the fact that i'm gonna be half insane there thinking about them...oh, boleh kah saya concentrate on study.. i'm gonna miss their laugh, their smell, their sounds, their eveything!! bawa baju depa masuk dlm beg sekali mmg kompem...kalau la bole bawa sekali masuk beg ... it's a big challenge for me!

masih lagi hisap jari to soothe himself

tayang gigi atas..ada 4batang

Rifqi's 1st camera...

dapat kat baju ok la..besar sket mama beli yg mainan pulak..hik3

tayang gigi bawah pulak..ada 2batang

cubaan untuk menanggalkan topi

...and the clock is ticking

i love beach

2011-06-16T10:23:00.001+09:00

Alhamdulillah...more and more good things are happening these day...thank you Allah! last week we got a 3days 2nights complimentary stay at any of these hotels .

berjaya langkawi beach & spa resort,Kedah
berjaya redang island resort,terengganu
berjaya tioman beach resort,pahang
berjaya georgetown hotel,penang
heritage cameron highlands hotel,pahang
palm spring resort port dickson,negeri sembilan
swiss garden kuantan hotel,pahang

i opt for redang..seriously, it has been one of the islands i wanna visit.i've never been there particularly because it's in terengganu..which needs a min 8hours driving...i guess,driving to kelantan early this year makes me think a lot about going there again by road...and you need to ride a 1hour 30mins ferry to get to the island if i'm not mistaken.i heard redang is beautiful and i have to admit that it really is when i see these pictures...plus, we're given a free stay at berjaya hotels which is one of the most luxurious hotels there..don't wanna miss the opportunity..sape tak suka dapat barang free kan? heheheh
can't wait to be there!! jom mimpi indah2

resort panoramic

aerial view of the white sandy beach

resort lobby lounging area

resort lobby walkway..very nice huh?

bayu bar

~~maybe~~ get a room like this... :)

with in-room jacuzzi overlooking the sea

swim here which is safer ~~for people who can't swim~~

dining area facing sea

all picture credit to berjaya hotel redang

haven't decided to bring the kids along or just the 2 of us... still searching for the perfect date as ramadhan is just a month away and 2weeks after aidilfitri i'll be flying somewhere else..hehehe.and we have to redeem it in the next 6months..and considering our circumstances, left only july..huhuhu

i hope the kids could join us!! every moment with them now is very precious!!

sape nak ikut??

Mai Label

2011-06-09T11:31:00.000+09:00

alhamdulillah...dah siap!

:)))))

design & ideas from ilyana

printed label from zue

Tote Bag for telekung & Quran

2011-06-07T04:23:00.000+09:00

finallyyy!!!

i can't remember when they ordered... and i already told them that they can place order but i can't promise when it'll be done( xkan la sampai tahun depan kan..eh,mana tau! hehehe)..and now, i can finally smile looking at these babies...this is a new record! 2 totes in a night..again, NIGHT! not day..(tp satu tu dah siap potong lama..hik3)

this one is ordered by Odie..kawan sekampung emirr.. she wanted a tote for her mom's coming birthday to use as surau tote(letak telekung & quran).. i hope she likes the colour i chose.. ok tak untuk mak2? huhuh..

also a ribbon to cheer up the plain pink

inner layer is cotton with small flowers pattern

malas nk cari telekung(the babies are sleeping n they are very..very..sensitive to lights.sat lagi bukak mata,mak derang pulak kena teman tido..xsiap keje), so i put tuala wangi sbg demo :)

the 2nd one is pre-ordered by ayu... she requested a tote bag using cotton fabric inside out...because both are cottons so the tote is slightly lighter than the above one... she requested a tote for the same purpose..letak telekung kat ofis..

a different kind of ribbon..the ribbon is also handmade

when laid open..love the holder which suites each side..kes terlebih rajin!

n of course you can reverse it! with pocket outside :)

thanx a lot odie & ayu for the order!!

hope you both like it

:))

Bento Lunch Bag lagi :)

2011-06-06T13:41:00.000+09:00

Bento bag pre-ordered by Kak Fida long ago... baru tadi tuan punya dtg ambil.. Alhamdulillah :))

it is slightly bigger than mine as requested by her..

9"(width) x 7.5"(height w/o handles) x 5.5(depth)

black,dark brown fabric- for office lady

i put the tumbler holder by the side..the way she wanted it ;)

hope she like it ;)

never run out of reasons to smile

2011-06-03T15:05:00.000+09:00

"None of us has the power to make someone else love us. But we all have the power to give away love, to love other people. And if we do so, we change the kind of person we are, and we change the kind of world we live in."

Rabbi Harold Kushner

i love those moments when i'm soooo exhausted and my mind was full with things to take care of...

the smell of your sweet baby scent took them away in no time. they are the best cure!

thank you Allah for the perfect gifts...

Pasta @ Cappricciosa

2011-06-02T14:01:00.001+09:00

suka betul panjat memanjat... almost impossible to make them sit tide in baby chairs... selalunya babychair tu buat perhiasan je kat meja..ntah apa alergik xmoh duduk kat kerusi

@ Cappricciosa Restaurant trying their fresh pasta...everything looks yummy!!

lasagna for me & Calamari and Onion in Squid Ink Sauce for emirr

gigi rayyan cantek kan?

adek pon mkn jugak tp xgemar

found this bag at popular bookstore..to my surprise, the price was RM69.90... mak aihh!

Rifqi the acrobatic

2011-06-01T16:20:00.002+09:00

#1 : front door grill

#2 : the gate that guard them from climbing upstairs

have to pay more attention to this lil guy... he's so slick!

Handmade Fabric Book Cover

2011-05-29T04:17:00.000+09:00

i'm not a book lover... i only read books either someone i know said a particular book is great or it is a bestseller or recommended by the store. and to be honest i'm a slow reader... it takes a month or more to read an inch english book(provided the book is interesting)..except for twilight which only took 2weeks..hehehe..so, i always carry the same book around for months..it's quite embarrasing to be frank..apa tak abih2 baca buku nipis camtu kan? and the fact that i don't like others to see what i'm reading(novel cintan ke kan) i always cover it with papers...usually A4 papers or newspapers...but these things are not interesting right..make me even boring to just open the book..hehhe(alasan!)

in japan i've always seen they read books/carry books with fabric covers..they all look cute and smart.but during my uni years lagi la xbaca buku2 novel..buku teks pon xabis khatam...xde la minat nk amek tau pasal book cover tu..since balik malaysia and starting from last year, i think..THINK(or perasan kot) i love reading books particularly motivational books...you know those self-improvement books have those big titles like "How to be a good listener", "How to influence people" and so on(no, i don't have those books by the way)...hehehe..agak segan untuk mengangkut buku bertajuk begitu utk jangka masa yg lama...teringat balik kat book cover yg comel2 nmpk kat jepun dulu..i wanna make 1 for maiself...

i've been eyeing on book cover tutorials for some time..dah lama study baru mlm ni ada keberanian untuk memotong kain...i followed several tutorials, some from japan..wanted this for sooo long.. ada jual kat MPH harga RM29..tp nak try buat dulu laa..kalau tak jadik baru pi cari balik kat kedai...Alhamdulillah, my 1st attempt was not bad at all... i'm not gonna give it a 10/10..there's some adjustments needs to be done in sewing the next book cover but i'm loving it!! now i can carry ~~the same~~ book anywhere anytime.. this time people will be eyeing on my fabric book cover, not my book title ;)

the best part is that, it is reversible, washable and adjustable complete with bookmark!!

the other side with different pattern

and one more thing i bought recently is this cute tiny little LED mini lamp at mph..price was rm20.now i can read in the same room where my boys are sailing in their dreamland..

owh and btw, MPH is having a 30% off on selected items(which is quite a number) now..can't remember until when..so go and grab your books to read!

wanna make more of this in smaller size and cute-r fabric pattern

:)))

nite2!!

gonna test my book cover n mini lamp now!

Beautiful words

2011-05-26T12:12:00.000+09:00

KITA adalah himpunan daripada tahun2 yang berlalu

tahun2 yg berlalu adalah himpunan daripada bulan2 yg berlalu

bulan2 yg berlalu adalah himpunan daripada minggu2 yg berlalu

minggu2 yg berlalu adalah himpuann daripada hari2 yg berlalu

hari2 yg berlalu adalah himpuanan daripada jam2 yg berlalu

jam2 yg berlalu adalah himpunan daripada minit2 yg berlalu

minit2 yg berlalu adalah himpunan daripada saat2 yg berlalu...

masa adalah usia kita..jika kita membazirkan masa, maka kita sedang membazirkan usia kita yg Allah kurniakan... jadi sama2 kita pastikan setiap masa kita dimanfaatkan ke arah kebaikan dunia akhirat.dalam satu hari Allah mengurniakan kepada kita 86 400saat..seperti Allah memberi kita RM86,400 untuk berbelanja...

Dunia ini tertegak pada 4perkara;

1.Keadilan pemerintah

2.Kedermawanan orang kaya

3.Ilmu para ulama

4.Doa orang fakir

Wordless Wednesday

2011-05-25T12:21:00.000+09:00

Mandi air hujan

2011-05-24T13:26:00.002+09:00

lamanyer xmenulis... keje dah mula serius..eceh, sblm nih xberapa serius laa..budak2 xde kan..kelas dah mula...balik semula mengajar mengeja dan mengira mcm kanak2 tadika.. saya dah naik pangkat( xde naik pon..saje nk poyo) jadi ketua blok..maknanya saya tak jadi cikgu kelas..tp saya kena manage sekali 2kelas punya jadual dan budak2..hehehe... kerja dah masuk tahun ke-4, mmg patut pon dapat keje susah sket kan..sampai bila nk keje takuk lama je..tp saya cuba yang terbaik...

borang2 utk training hampir siap.tadi pergi medical check-up, x-ray, blood pressure, urine-test, blood test bagai... masa amek darah, tangan sebelah xcukup..darah xkuar sangat..doc cucuk sebelah tangan lagi..fenomena biasa bg saya..dulu pernah pitam lps amek darah..pastu, waktu check sugar level..doc kata bacaannya agak tinggi..pg tu saya sarapan roti+gula n air milo..malam sebelumnya encik suami masakkan ayam madu..sedapp sangat..huhuhu..lps nih kena jaga makan & lebih byk bersenam la nampaknyer.. arituh baru mula jogging tapi tipu2 sket..lari kejap, jalan banyak..hehehe...

the boys

rayyan semakin petah bercakap...there's so many moments when he do something, say something that made our days...if only i can record each and every moment to look back... i just post some on fb..can we track back from there? huhuhu...

this is one of the best moment
it was raining around 5pm that day... i was at home.. rayyan was getting boring being in the house all day.. so, i took out their mini pool..tadah air hujan..rayyan was so excited..he's never seen i did that before..selalu tadah air paip kan...when the rain stopped it was around 6pm..

rayyan got out and check on the water level...

then i heard him said clearly," Terima kasih hujan!!" dengan sengih berjelaa..

ok,sedia untuk berendam!!

jom adek!

mula2 mama xnak masukkan adek..tp bila adek buat muka seposen, mama masukkan adek join abang rayyan ...

seronok la abang rayyan

jirus menjirus

ajar rifqi main fish

tolong jirus rifqi

dua2 xnak naik walaupon air hujan tu sejuk mak aih..

dah lama xbawa budak2 nih pergi mandi pool...rayyan asyik sibuk nk lompat air..hehehe..

seronoknyer bila anak2 dah pandai buat macam2...especially rayyan laa..bila dukung rasa mcm dah xlarat.tp masih lagi mama dukung jugak kadang2... rayyan mmg pandai memuji...antara ayat2 pujian yang selalu dia cakap;

- wahhh...cantiknyer..bestnyer..

(pernah juga dengar dia cakap "best giller", kids are good at immitating us,right?)

-mama/papa HEBAT laa! (xtau la tang mana yg hebat sbb dia puji even buat benda simple je..perkataan hebat tu mmg sound like a big deal laa)

-rifqi budak baik kan?(bila nk something from rifqi)

bila pandang muka rayyan mcm xsangka je dia dah besar...almost 4years old.. and one of his biggest achievement is staying diaperless in less than 2weeks training... the best part is, masa training siang, malam pon dia xpakai pampers and baru terlajak satu kali jer... lps tu mmg selamat dah... one thing i learned is that we parents must continously puji anak2...even the simplest, small deeds they do..do say thank you for everything they do for you..(sampai kat hujan pon dia kata terima kasih)... kalau anak2 buat silap, jgn besar2kan... tp bila dia buat baik, raikan!

Tote bag with a little something

2011-05-18T12:59:00.000+09:00

alhamdulillah...

managed to sew a few projects & orders these 2days off. a bag, a BIG cushion cover and a gps pouch..

this one is a tote bag pre-ordered by k.niza

she picked out the outer fabric from mai collection..i chose the lining for her

it is an A4 landscape size tote bag

when i finished the bag, it looked too plain...kinda boring actually

so i put a little something to make it stands out..

a ribbon!

with 2pockets inside

you can turn it around if you want a little different( no ribbon)

i think i want one too

Rifqi & Qaseh's birthday

2011-05-16T09:22:00.001+09:00

it was celebrated on 24th april.. my sis was celebrating her daughter's 3rd birthday n we decided to celebrate rifqi's birthday too..

here's some great memories ;)

the birthday cake i sponsored..beli on the spot kat secret recipe,xsempat order..

tetamu yang hadir

yang diraikan..rifqi aydeen & qaseh sofea

rayyan & his bestfriend kat kampung, qaseh

qaseh & ayah

antara jamuan dihidang..lauk2 kampung..yummyy!

my birthday gift for rifqi

btw, today is Teacher's day..

Happy Teacher's Day to all teachers out there...!!

psssttt... arinih saya cuti ;)

AAJ Family day & Rifqi's 1st birthday

2011-05-12T13:32:00.000+09:00

'Rajio Taisou' - senaman radio

Rifqi during rajio taisou

inside Rimba Ilmu

both my boys hate anything on their head

exhausted

anyam ketupat..seriously it was very hard to teach people how to make one..

Rayyan

kenangan dengan tour guide

idrus sensei & Aidan

Papa & Rayyan

tiup tepung ke makan tepung?

tangkap bulu tangkis

cute Shouma

Rifqi & mama

Boling sepak takraw

pengadil Rayyan

Rifqi & Tok Ma

Rifqi's 1st birthday cake..sedapppp..choc+coffee

thanx everyone for the birthday song

alhamdulillah dapat celebrate birthday rifqi

Rayyan tunggu kek

we had fun!!

:))

Blue-Stripes Tote Bag

2011-05-11T11:21:00.000+09:00

for the very 1st time...

for SALE!!

Two Bags For The Price Of One

The Blue-Stripes Tote Bag

*Comfortable and casual

*totally handmade, including the handles :))

*Reversible

*Easy Access and Pack Open Top

*Pockets on both side

*Washable

*one of a kind

*eco-friendly

approximate dimensions ;

13.5" tall x 13.5" wide x 5.5" deep

Shoulder Straps - 22" long

Fabric used;

PlainBlue-high quality cotton canvas,

BlueStripes,polka dots- cotton

Functions;

Shopping

Travel

Daily Commute

Surau purpose for telekung & Al-Quran

Gym and Exercise

Library

Kid Stuff - Diaper

Overnight Bag

give me your price ;)

Big GIANT tote bag

2011-05-11T01:59:00.003+09:00

mai very first tote bag!

it was a custom order from idrus sensei..he wanted a bag big enough to fit all his PhD files,books, planner and all(including his umbrella..hik3)..he used to carry around an eco vinyl bag from 'giant superstore' but the files are ruining it... so, he requested this 'giant' tote bag from me similar to the size of the giant eco bag he's using

the bag measures around

17"width x 15" height(w/o handles) x 8" depth

it was big enough to fit rifqi in it.i bet rayyan also can fit in...there's a pocket in front for 2pens and 1 big pocket for other things.you could turn it into a grocery bag, a big one...it is reversible too.i used a simple plain linen inside complete with pocket .. didn't manage to get a picture on that,sorry...i'm too excited to show the bag to the customer ;)

these two pictures were taken after the product was sold...lucky me he offered to be a model to the bag for future use..thanx a lot idrus sensei!! thanx for the support and motivation :))

i name it GIANT tote bag :))

Be Grateful, Be Happy

2011-05-10T10:40:00.001+09:00

1. Think more thoughts in a day of abundance than of lack of money.

2. Be happy now, without the money.

3. Be truly grateful for everything you have now.

4. Give the best of yourself to others.

Four easy steps. You can do them if you want it enough.

Tunaikan segala hak Allah..

insyaAllah Allah akan pelihara segala urusan kita,termasuk yang diluar kawalan kita

Rifqi Aydeen is 1 today!

2011-05-04T14:25:00.001+09:00

Selamat ulang tahun kelahiran yg pertama sayang!

Muhammad Rifqi Aydeen

04.05.2010

8:28 am
2.95kg

04.05.2011

8:19 am @ klinik kesihatan pulau meranti for 1year-old jab

7.6kg

01.05.2011

Rifqi's 1st Cameron Highland trip

You are mai sweetheart

current obsession : balls, stairs & MAMA!

ada bakat jadi pemain bola neh

on his 1st birthday!

Mai son who's turning 4!

2011-04-30T10:47:00.000+09:00

scene : gosok gigi

mama : meh mama gosokkan
rayyan : ala..rayyan la gosok..
mama : mama gosokkan dulu,lps tu rayyan gosok sendiri eh?
rayyan : hmm..

*accidently, ubat gigi jatuh atas kaki*

rayyan: eee...tgk tu..kan dah kena kaki
mama:alaaa,xpe,nnti mama bersihkan..berus gigi abiskan dulu
rayyan: *pegi kat baldi amik air dan jirus kaki dia,lps tu sengih*
mama: *loghat juga budak nih*

scene --> getting ready to go out

mama : rayyan pakai baju nih eh..cantek kan? (sambil tunjuk baju kemeja pink)
rayyan : ehhh, GOSOK dulu...
mama & papa : hahaha..kena gosok dulu eh?? *kira halal xbley?*

:))))

Our 1st Contest

2011-04-29T16:55:00.001+09:00

we've never take part in any contest of any sort regarding babies... selalu bila baca majalah mmg semangat nk masuk, tapi tangguh2 sampai la dateline..hahaha...typical la kan...alasan busy mcm biasa.. tp this time, tetiba je rasa nak take part, kebetulan sbb gambar pon ada depan mata, no long-caption,slogan whatsoever yg buat menyampah nk masuk pertandingan...it's easy peasy.. anta gmbr letak caption(kalau nak) and you'll be in the run to win something for Mother's Day 2011...i have no idea what the prizes would be but i don't mind... wahh, mother's day is just around the corner.. :)))

the theme is "Kasih Ibu"..

and i sent this photo to win :)

do you like it?

do vote for us :))

(hari jumaat ni elok buat baik byk2..hehehe)

there are many other nice photos and i vote my favourite among them... you can vote for them too..

maybe that 1 vote of yours can make up someone's day and put a smile on one face(or more)

marilah kita sama2 menjadi orang yg bahagia dan membahagiakan..

it is free, instant good deeds and you'll be happy to see those mothers & childrens pictures

fair rite?

what you have to do is

'like' TheLittleOneBoutique page

and vote for you favourite picture by clicking 'like' button

feel free to leave some nice comments too

Isnin cuti..yeayy!!

Have a nice holiday!!

;)

p/s: we'll be going to Ipoh tomorrow n stay overnight at Cameron insyaAllah

Strawberry Bento Bag

2011-04-28T13:20:00.001+09:00

for mai dear sister who always brings bento to work :)

with lining inside

tied with ribbon

love the surprised face n broad smile when she received this...

it's priceless..

i'm glad she love it!

Wordless Wednesday

2011-04-27T14:20:00.000+09:00

Mai Little Helpers with mommy's new toys